This has turned into a mommy blog thanks to my first pregnancy being SO not what I expected... We may return to old posts after July but I doubt it, this motherhood stuff is seeming like quite the adventure!
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Rest in Peace
I have been having a super busy few days (or weeks) at work and those were suddenly put into perspective when I found out that a friend I graduated high school with had suddenly passed away. I realized that if I were to lose the people that made my life worth living suddenly or if I were to die today, I wouldn't be worried about the spreadsheet that is yet to be completed or the client email that I forgot to answer. I would regret logging in from home for two hours and not spending that time with my little girl. I would regret falling asleep before her from sheer exhaustion and mental fatigue. I would regret having spent very little quality time with my husband, who I love more than anything. It is so very hard to realize that our life has an end and we can't forsee when that is, and the fact that it can be way too soon is terrifying. Even if I had 1000 years with all of you, it will never be enough. It is time for me to re-prioritize quite a few things so thank you John, for that and for so much more. Thank you for making me laugh with your posts on Facebook while we watched the Cubs give up God knows how many games in the final innings thanks to awful pitching. Thank you for the laughs on the Chilling The Most group. Thank you for making me feel good about myself in high school without even trying and for hugging me the last time you saw me like you had really missed me for the last 10 years. I will miss the hell out of you. Your final gift to me is the gift of perspective. It definitely wasn't worth the loss of you in this world, but I promise to make the most of it.